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Loosing Momentum, Or Just Blowing Off Steam?

I feel like I am in such a weird place this last week! It’s this bizarre conflict between feeling amazing and feeling guilty.

I have been feeling so great lately. This last week has been full of incredible days bonding with my son, fun nights out and mornings jam packed with friends. I feel fantastic! Not just mentally, but physically too. I haven’t liked looking at myself in the mirror for a long time. Like years long time. These past four months I have looked in the mirror with pride in how well I have done since starting this challenge. But this last week I have finally LIKED who I see in the mirror! I have felt like I am myself again. And I mean myself as in how I felt the weeks leading up to my wedding.

We got pregnant on our honey moon. And BAM my thyroid turns on me and my hormones have been on a roller coaster ever since. I was pregnant for five months. Suffered the loss of our son for two more months before getting pregnant again. Followed by ten more months being pregnant. The next 15 months my body dealt with my thyroid stabilizing but all the added and changing hormones that come after having a baby and breast feeding for a year. Then ten more months being pregnant. And the last three spent once again dealing with the hormone changes of having a baby and starting to breast feed again. WHEW that’s a lot in three and a half years!!

So now my energy is high, I’m feeling so satisfied in life, I’m setting and working on great life goals, and enjoying being a wife and mother to two beautiful children. Where does the guilt part of this enter? This week I have cheated on my diet numerous times, and worked out only once! But the “weakness” is coming from this bizarre place of being happy with myself and therefore slipping back into old and unhealthy habits. No, I don’t deserve the pizza I ate this weekend

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I’m not doing so well I can take a break. In fact, I still have 50 pounds to loose to get to my ultimate goal. Although, I have stopped weighing myself which is a weird new mental space to be in too. I really want to step onto that scale. How much damage has all this cheating and lack of exercise done? Yet that’s why I wanted to stop weighing in: I still feel great in my skin! But I DO still have a half marathon to run in October no matter how great I feel.

So do I look at this past week as just a blip on the radar? A week long relaxed enjoyment in the happiness I’m feeling? I guess so. But I think it’s also time to start working on my fitness goals.

Because let’s be honest, you can be a great goal setter and never take a step to make those goals a reality!

This next week, I plan to stick to keto as often as possible. But more importantly, I plan to sit down (tonight) and come up with a game plan to start working on my marathon training. It’s nice enough some days to run outside, but I need an action plan. What to do with the kids: run with, with one, or without? And where do they go when I do run, at a friends during the day, with hubby at night? How much cycling am I gonna do when I can’t get outside or to a treadmill? How often am I going to do weight lifting?

So, expect to see my action plan posted by Tuesday at the latest!!!!

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For the Sake of My Daughter

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Well, I haven’t written a post in two weeks now. I think, hopefully it’s not three weeks and I’m doing even worse than I think haha This is simply due to our whole family coming down with a cold. First I got sick, then my hubby D, then sick kiddos. Thankfully it was just a cold, I got it the worst, it barely touched our son, and only a little worse our daughter. I did pretty well sticking to plan too, except that my health food store ran out of my alternative sweetener and I caved on day three of being sick and ate like three of my sons snack bags of Famous Amos cookies lol I think if I had been able to make my own cookies I wouldn’t have gone for the junk version. Oh well.

But what I really want to write about this post, is a discussion I had with a very dear friend about the relationship between our scales and our daughters.

Both of us are on a weight loss journey. Both of us have struggled with our weight in the past. And both of us have a love hate relationship with our scales. They have the power to both motivate and crush us.

Now, I am incredibly happy to state that I am feeling amazing about myself lately; body image wise. Although my stomach looks different than it did when I got married (I have given birth to three children after all) I am only ten pounds heavier than that wonderful day, and feel like I look pretty much the same again. I’m in the groove with this grain free sugar free lifestyle. I’ve got my prep, cooking, cleanup and even house cleaning in order. I’m liking what I’m cooking and baking and things are starting to feel like routine. This, is a pretty great place to be mentally.

But… I still found myself stepping on my scale every morning. Now, I know that many people believe you should only weigh yourself once a week at the most! I however, have always found my scale to be appropriately motivating. I have never felt that my scale owned or controlled me, but rather always gave an accurate portrayal of where I was in regards to my progress. I’m big on goal setting and my goal has always been a weight number. To be exact, my dream body weight since I graduated high school was to be 150lbs. For my height, and desire to be muscular rather than skinny, that is a very reachable goal. So yes, I step on my scale, I would say on average, at least three times a week. And I’m not ashamed or embarrassed by that fact.

However, my friend and I found ourselves on the exact same thought process on the same morning. What will our stepping on the scale, and our subsequent reactions, look like in our daughters eyes? And I mean their young, pure, untainted-by-societal-expectations eyes.

My MAIN goal in this year long challenge was and still is to change out my poor habits for healthier ones in the hopes of modelling a healthy relationship to food for my kids. I want them to see me excited about meal planning. Wanting to choose an apple with cinnamon over a bowl of ice cream (most of the time). I want them to get excited to cook with me, and to love getting the first taste test of a new creation. I don’t want my kids to use food as a reward, or an emotional bandaid. I want them to pull out board games when their bored, not the tv controller and a bag of chips.

So if that’s all true… if those are my real desires for myself and my family… maybe it’s time to break up with my scale?

Watching my weight gain closely in my third pregnancy was smart. I did not want to gain another 80+ pounds this time. But I did amazing while pregnant with A. I literally destroyed my weight gain goals and did even better than I thought possible. I’ve already lost all the weight gained with her plus another ten pounds and she’s not even three months old yet. I think it’s safe to throw out my scale now.

I think that from now on, progress pics, measurements, the feeling of my clothes getting looser, the feeling of energy and amount of time spent physically playing with my kids should be enough. Because this year long challenge, was taken up in the hope of creating life long change. That means, that if I stick to making healthier choices, if I keep setting goals like running half marathons, or getting outside with my kids four times a week, the weight WILL come off. The dial on my scale will start falling backwards, and one day I will hit, at least into the ballpark, that lifelong goal weight. And I can achieve that without checking in on my scale.

My daughter will see my health choices affecting my quality of life. Not the numbers on my scale affecting my mood for the day.

And right as I came to that conclusion, my dear friend sent me a link to this blog post her husband found; and I just knew God was reaffirming that this awareness, was in the direction He’s been leading me 🙂

http://vitals.lifehacker.com/f-k-the-scale-1683801679

Also, I came across this video on FB and think it’s totally worth it for all women to watch. I was totally that girl who would not run outside where people could see me! But then I realized that every person who saw me out running while they were driving in their vehicles were being lazier than I was in that moment. And that honestly, they were probably like “hey, good for her, she’s out improving herself in public, that takes guts!” Meanwhile I was jiggle-jiggle-jiggling lol
http://runningmagazine.ca/this-girl-can-videos-tackle-exercise-related-insecurities/

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Last Month In Review

This last month was full of mistakes made and lessons learned. It started off great with seeing success in eating a solid breakfast rather than liquid ones (mainly protein shakes or bulletproof coffee). Followed by a mentally rough week filled with an entire weekend of bad cheat meals and then mentally just spiralling out of shame. Then I found an article about clean eating success that gave me some great tips, making a food plan ahead of time, pre making as many meals as possible, always taking an extra meal with me when I leave the house so I wouldn’t be caught unprepared, and having a verbal phrase to repeat to myself when feeling tempted to cheat. All were very helpful and the next three weeks went very successfully. My food from low Carb Canada came in and it’s been delicious! It was nice to have burgers with BBQ sauce, and pancakes with real syrup. The chocolate bars aren’t my favorite, but they are handy to have around for a quick snack if I’m feeling tempted. But the pop has been super great to have.

This last week, although entirely successful as regards to sticking to the meal plan, was a tough one due to lack of sleep. Baby girl A has just gone through a sleep regression. She went from 8-10 hours of sleep to back to being up every 2-3 hours. My body took it harder than I expected after all the wonderful sleep I was suddenly getting again. I had more cravings, was much lazier in regards to cooking ahead of time, and did find that I was hungry when normally hunger doesn’t seem to be an issue. The tiredness drastically affected my desire to workout. I think I only got three workouts in, by the last half of the week I had pretty much given up on doing anymore. But, I made it through. I didn’t loose any weight, or inches, but hey, zero cheats is still a huge success in my books.

It might sound funny but two posts ago I wrote about how I seem to cheat every two weeks around pay day. Mostly because of where my brain was at. Well yesterday I had two cheat meals, go figure they were both pizza. I love and miss pizza with a great crust! But, this time it wasn’t out of a negative head space. I used a tip I got from that fitness article “Keep T.A.B.S. on your emotions: Before you let your emotions drive you to a carton of ice cream, ask yourself if you are Tired, Angry, Bored or Sad. If you are, disrupt that craving with a positive distraction— something that you love to do other than eat.” I wasn’t any of those things, and it wasn’t like I was rewarding myself for having done so well (that’s been a huge problem in the past, rewarding my good eating with unhealthy food, or feeling like I deserved that food). I just wanted to order pizza with my husband and felt like I was in a good place to enjoy some carbs. It felt good and tasted great, but I’m still back to my clean eating today. I’m not going to spiral mentally in shame 🙂 I think, just maybe, I’m starting to get a better handle on my relationship with food!

This last months stats:
Pounds lost: 7
Inches lost: 8

Other positives: C is eating more veggies and his new favorite activity is washing dishes! AND I finally got my Christmas present! A new to me home weight system 🙂 Hubby D did a ton of work taking this beast apart, hauling it home and setting it up again. Thanks babe! Here’s to greater gains!

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My goals for the next month are:
•lose 6 pounds
•put on some noticeable muscle in my arms
•try at least four new meal recipes
•put more effort into letting C help me making food.

What are some of your goals heading into this new month?

What are some negative things you’d like to leave behind?

How are you going to make these things happen?!

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Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award!

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Thanks so much to http://godmadedirt.org for nominating me for the Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award! In accepting the award, I have some questions I need to answer. Here we go!

In one word, how would you like your readers to describe your blog?

Motivating

Which is your most favorite among your blog posts and why?

Probably my first post. It was a big challenge for me to post something so incredibly personal on a public forum. I knew I would be posting pictures of my progress on this journey and I was starting from a place I was unhappy with so that took guts. But also, I think it just sums up why I gave myself this year long challenge.
https://morethantheskinnyfriend.wordpress.com/2014/10/05/why-its-about-so-much-more-than-being-the-skinny-friend/

What/Who inspires most of your blog posts?

Will it sound egotistical if I say myself? Lol I am so proud of how well I am doing, even if I have bad weeks. I want people to see the real struggle it is to make healthy lifestyle changes and I’m proud I’m still going strong!

What do you aspire to accomplish this year?

Well my year long challenge started October 4th 2014, and by that date this year I plan to run my first Half Marathon! But along the way I am hoping to accomplish new cooking skills, an appreciation of cooking I’ve never had, I hope to inspire a healthy relationship to food in my kids, I hope to set up great healthy starts in their bodies (ie. immune systems), and I hope to reach my weight loss goal!

What do you aspire to learn this year?

I want to learn how to change my minds relationship with my body and food. I want to be aware of my struggles, and find new ways of challenging those struggles.

What is your favorite book?

That is a TOUGH question! I’m a huge fiction reader. Can I say a three way tie between Pride and Prejudice, Gone with the Wind, and ShoGun? They are all amazing stories written about peoples real life struggles, strong and stubborn personalities, and amazing adventures!

What is the most courageous thing you have ever done?

This might sound silly to some, but I decided to host a fundraiser to bring at risk youth to an amazing weekend retreat. It was a dating auction at my Bible College. A bible college that no joke used to have boys and girls walk on separate sidewalks! Lol Although they had come a long way, they were still quiet conservative. It was a huge undertaking, I had to get permission from the schools president, and even took some flak from fellow students I didn’t even know! But we got the green light, it ended up being the schools most successful fundraiser ever! And we were able to bring over thirty youth out to the conference!

If you could be a superhero? What is your super power?

As far as traditional super heroes go, I think strength 🙂 As a non traditional super hero it would be the ability to make food from nothing!

Who is your female role model?

The Women’s Ministry Pastor at our church. She is the strongest, most wise woman I know!

Now, for other nominees, this is what you do:
thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site
put the award logo on your blog
answer the ten questions sent to you (the same questions above)
nominate seven blogs

Now because I am new to the blogging world, many of the blogs I follow, I follow because I found them through this award so they have already been nominated. So I will post some, but not seven, of the women I find amazing and inspiring!

Here are my nominees:

1) Maria Emmerich at http://mariamindbodyhealth.com/ whom I get all my keto knowledge from.

2) Tamara http://www.thattamiam.com/ a wonderful friend who shares many hilarious and serious stories of motherhood

3) Erin http://coffeetimewitherin.blogspot.ca/2015/01/the-health-of-my-heart.html?m=1 another beautiful friend who shares stories from her life

And 4) Erin again posting about a great online Bible study http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/

Please take a minute to check out these wonderful women’s blogs!

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Plan Plan Planning Success

This has been an interesting week. It started off easily enough, everything had already been pre made the week before and my plan was still in place. What a great way to help myself succeed a week straight! It’s definitely something I aim to keep doing.

When people talk about diets, restrictions are the first things that come to mind. I want people to see how many delicious meals and desserts I get to eat. I was asked this week by a nutritionist why I chose Keto as my diet to stick to for a year. The answer? Because it’s been the easiest diet to stick to I’ve ever tried. My energy has stayed high, I don’t feel deprived, no insane cravings, I’m full ALL the time, and so far it’s working. How many people gain the minimum weight suggested during pregnancy and lose all that weight within a week of birth? Compared to my first pregnancy of 80+ pounds gained this diet was a gift from God! Here are some photos of the deliciousness of my week!

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I had my family over for dinner, this spaghetti squash was delicious!

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A keto mug cake recipe I found through someone else’s blog, I added some sweetened cream cheese and it was a perfect quick fix for a craving I had for cake.

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It’s a good thing I brought one more meal than I was expecting to need this day. We decided to take C to the Science Centre Sunday and we went straight from church. I had thrown a shake and a container of food and I ate it all while the boys ate Arby’s and cafeteria food.

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I made some really amazing fat bombs for my pre and post workout snacks. 100% natural and sooo delicious! I had quiet a few friends ask for the recipe to the raspberry ones so I thought I would post the link here as well. There are a whole bunch to choose from 🙂

http://ketodietapp.com/Blog/?tag=%2FtagFatBombs&title=Fat+Bombs&page=1

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Butternut Squash soup, sooo yummy. Then later in the week I mixed it with leftover Creamy Mexican Chicken and that was even better!

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Protein Pancakes anyone? Yum! And best part of pancakes was…

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My food order from lowcarbcanada.ca came in Tuesday! So I was able to put Maple Syrup on my pancakes, and BBQ sauce on my chicken! I have tried one of the grape pops, it’s good but I can definitely taste the difference with the xylitol sweetener. And I’ve tried the milk chocolate bar, very good, and nice to have something I can just carry with me so if I’m around sweets out of the house cravings won’t make me cave! This week were doing hamburgers so I’ll get to try the other flavour of BBQ sauce I bought.

Wednesday I weighed myself again and was up I think two pounds. It put my head instantly into a negative space. I was feeling disappointed so I decided to take my measurements. I knew a long time ago that soon here my scale would no longer be my friend and measurements would be more accurate. So I took measurements and I was down 2 inches! Made me feel much better; goes to show that the scale doesn’t always paint an accurate picture.

This week I have been craving chips. Not 100% sure how to meet this craving. I have found a recipe for Kale chips, and chicken skin chips I can try. And might attempt to make my own crackers. But either way I plan to up my sodium this week. I’m also bruising a lot more than normal. Which isn’t so abnormal for me. I’ve had iron deficiencies multiple times before so I just plan to start taking my iron supplements again.

This weeks review:
Pounds: -2
Inches: -3
Cheats: 0

This next week I would like to work on portion sizes. Still need to write out my meal plan for this week, go grocery shopping, prep as much as I can, and pick a new verbal mantra to repeat to myself every day! Oh! And just remembered, this two pound weight loss has finally put me under the 200 number!!! I’m officially in the one hundreds 🙂

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These Roller Coasters Aren’t So Much Fun

It has been a roller coaster of two weeks; physically, and mentally!

Honestly, the reasons I didn’t write a post last week were that I was in a weak place mentally, and a pretty low point physically. I was embarrassed to share how my week had been, and by Saturday not yet ready to start really looking into what had happened and how to get out of the slump. I was still slumping until Sunday.

I tell ya, it was so many things all balled up, but when I got right down to it I realized that I’m entering a new territory in my challenge where I’m starting to see how much I’m MENTALLY messed up when it comes to food. I’ve delt with cravings, and planning issues, but this was different.

It started on Thursday. Day before hubby’s pay day, and the last day before I could go grocery shopping and replenish our fridge. I had had a great day so far; the moms group I serve on the leadership team with at our church had it’s first session after the holidays and it was great to see everyone again. But when 4pm came rolling around and I didn’t have anything prepared for dinner, and had only plain meat and veggies to steam that could be made quickly enough, it was like my thinking just jumped to “screw it”. There was no mental battle, just simply thoughts like “I’m so tired of meat and veggies”, “I do NOT want to spend a lot of time cooking only to have to clean up again afterwards”, “I’ve been doing so well I should be able to have a cheat meal”. So I think I just made some cheese noodles. Something easy, only took one pot and a spoon to make, and C and I both liked it. Then the next morning I was on my way to a friends house, hadn’t gone grocery shopping yet. It was pay day so I was going to go after our workout. I probably could have made a smoothie, but by then I was experiencing cravings and told myself “I cheated last night anyways, I’m running late already so I’ll just go through a drive through”. I went through the McDonalds drive through and picked up a McGriddle. Not gonna lie it was gooood lol But then, instead of working out, I decided to run a couple errands because my amazing friend T offered to watch both kids while I went out! It was my first time without both kids and I jumped at the opportunity. Then that night hubby D and I did what we used to always do on pay day. We ordered Boston Pizza for dinner. Worst part was, not only did I inhale my food without enjoying a bite because I was busy breast feeding A and getting things for C, but then I felt really ill all that night. Saturday was another write off when D offered to pick up McD’s again and I jumped at the opportunity to not have to cook, again. That night I felt sick, surprise right? We had finally gone grocery shopping Saturday, so Sunday I weighed myself and could have cried.

I had gone from my lowest weight yet of 202lbs to 209! I instantly realized that I needed to take some time to figure out what had gone wrong and get back on track. I had eaten crap Thursday and Friday, so when Saturday came around, blog day, I knew I didn’t want to weigh myself, take pictures, or measurements. I didn’t want to write a blog while I was still in my slump, like I said earlier I was embarrassed. So I simply didn’t. I told myself I was too busy, I didn’t want the scale to be owning me and my weight loss journey. All crap.

Sunday morning I weighed myself like I said. Was very disappointed by the results. Who gains 7 pounds over one weekend of bad eating? Not even a week, 3 days! I knew that most of it would just be water retention and inflammation again, but it still takes a lot longer to loose that than gain it. I read an awesome post http://www.fitnessrxwomen.com/life-health/jaime-baird/dieters-handbook/ all about clean eating success. It had some great tips, most I had seen before but there were a few new ones I felt would really help me, and old ones I really needed to implement.

I made a meal plan for the week

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Pre packed lunches finally!

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Made my breakfast foods for the next two weeks

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And made my dessert for the week (sooo good, raspberry cheesecake ice cream)

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I was determined to loose ALL the weight I had gained. It was hard knowing I was just re losing weight I had already worked to lose. It was hard knowing I could have been a couple pounds lighter than I was two weeks previous rather than back to where I was. That was a huge part of why I gave myself this challenge. While I was pregnant and dabbling in keto I would eat clean all week, then cheat all weekend. I was constantly going up and down up and down. I started this challenge because I wanted to stop that unhealthy cycle!

Well, I’ll have to wait and see if I can continue these healthy habits longer than two weeks (which seems to be the average time I go between cheats, I think it’s connected to running out of food and pay day). So my goals for the next two weeks are:
•update my shape diary daily and weekly
•take my photos and measurements weekly
•blog weekly!!!
•write down my two week meal plan
•grocery shop on time
•make as much as I can ahead of time
•pick a positive mantra and vocalize mornings and when I’m debating a cheat
•stay positive, and when I catch myself slipping take the time to sit down, figure out why and make an immediate plan to get back on track!

That’s a lot of goals lol but most of them are things I’ve already been doing.

So, the breakdown for this past week.
AWESOME

Weight lost: 8 pounds! That means I lost the weight I regained plus another pound 🙂
Inches lost: 2 1/4!
Cheats: 0

AND

I’ve finally seen enough progress to post pictures 🙂 These show my progress since starting to workout, so the last two weeks (the before pics are from three weeks ago but I didn’t take fully clothed pics two weeks ago and am not yet ready to post those in my sports bra and shorts.) w12 and w15 stand for week 12 and 15 that I’ve completed since starting my year long challenge.

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Cheers to a better week and smashing goals!!!

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Eating Is About to Get Sweeter!

I just have to share a fabulous Canadian website that offers amazing food, condiments, baking needs, etc that fit in with my keto diet.!!! It’s http://www.lowcarbcanada.ca

I just bought Maple syrup, hickory BBQ sauce, honey mustard BBQ sauce, a six pack of grape pop, and raspberry and milk chocolate bars with taxes and shipping for $40! Seriously, BBQ sauce?!?! And pop?! Oh man, things I have been missing.

All of these are zero’s on the glycemic index, and all made with 100% natural ingredients including all natural non chemically processed sweeteners!! Man I hope it ships quickly!!

Just had to share in my excitement 🙂

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